I had three bamboo horses and was the only girl in four families.
The family was down and out, and the elders were ready to marry and wanted me to marry one of them.
But the school bully Xiao Zhou swept me with a disgusted glance and refused, “I can't marry, I like the well-behaved ones and only treat her as a brother.”
Little Milk Dog Xu Xuyan regretfully spread his hands: “I also only treat her as a sister.”
The school bully Zhuang Yan even said in a cold voice: “She is reckless and stupid, not suitable to be my wife.
All kinds of rejection and disparagement, no scruples, my parents can only be embarrassed to compensate for the smile.
I was also completely disillusioned.
So I said to my parents, “Mom and Dad, I have a boyfriend.”
1
Xiao Zhou had his sleeves rolled up, one arm draped over the back of the chair, and was sitting with a big grin on his face.
He was laughing and chatting with Xu Xuyan.
Zhuang Yan was looking down at his cell phone.
Slender fingers sliding carelessly on the screen, the light refracted by the lenses of the glasses also looks cold and unsympathetic.
For my parents awkwardly smiled to round up the words, they are perfunctory impatient to listen.
Until I opened my mouth to finish this sentence.
The box suddenly fell into silence.
Xiao Zhou and Xu Xuyan simultaneously turned their heads to look at me.
Zhuang Yan also raised his head, his meaningful gaze piercing over.
I was as if I hadn't realized it.
I just said to my parents, who were also stunned, “You should have told me about the marriage earlier to save this misunderstanding.”
“They're right.”
“Although they are childhood friends, I only treat them as brothers, and I don't have any personal feelings for them.”
My parents didn't tell me it was a blind date because they were afraid I wouldn't be able to face it.
And they deliberated carefully.
The target they chose was Xu Xuyan, who had almost never quarreled with me, was two years younger than me, and had a clingy and lively personality.
I don't know why, but in the end, the other two came too.
Although I was a little angry that my parents had kept this from me.
But more than that, I felt heartache and sadness.
My family's situation wasn't as bad as it is now.
My mom once asked me if I had a favorite person.
I looked away and didn't say anything.
So mom instantly knew.
She smiled and tentatively asked me if that person was one of these three bamboo horses of mine.
I reddened, annoyed, and told her not to say anything else.
She realized at once that it must be.
Only I was vigilant at the back, hiding my feelings to death.
They could not figure out who I liked.
Until my dad's investment failed, the family fortune lost again and again.
Our Ji family was completely down and out, and we were alienated by the other three families intentionally or unintentionally.
My mom felt that.
If she didn't help me fight for once.
According to my tough-talking, face-saving nature, I'm afraid I'll never confess to someone I like again in my life.
That's why she was reckless and hid this blind date banquet from me.
Although the parents of the Xu family did not come, but came to Xiao and Zhuang's son.
But my parents still took it seriously.
Openly talked to them about the current situation of my family.
They said that if I am in love with one of them, it would be best if we can get married.
But if we don't have that intention, we are just friends.
Then this seat, as an ordinary dinner, my parents will not force.
Only they did not expect.
These three and I grew up together childhood childhood friends.
Will put their precious daughter in the palm of their hands, refused to be so undignified.
I've actually gotten used to it.
But looking at the smiles that were getting harder and harder to maintain on my mom and dad's faces.
My heart was clenched violently, and pain flooded through me after a long time.
I finally couldn't help myself and spoke out to interrupt their bad behavior.
Not waiting for Mom and Dad to ask me what was going on.
I stood up, cruised around, and said in a cold voice, “I see you guys don't really want to eat this meal.”
“In that case, let's get together.”
2
My parents went to get the car first.
I was about to follow, when my arm was suddenly yanked from behind.
When I turned my head, I saw Xiao Zhou's face with a very unhappy expression.
He was wearing a white shirt with a black low-neck T-shirt.
Revealing the two new diamond studs on his sexy collarbone, he was trendy and wildly uninhibited.
Just like him.
He stared down at me, hooking his lips in a conspiratorial smile, “Haven't seen you for a while, you're grumpy again?”
“I thought you took a long vacation, where did you find a boyfriend?”
“How old is he? What does he look like? Do I know him?”
He asked a series of oppressive questions.
He seemed to care about me.
But once I gave a full account.
He'd wink and scoff, belittling me, saying I wasn't worthy.
It had been many times.
I responded to the stress almost immediately.
As soon as I shook off his hand, I couldn't control myself and blurted out, “It has nothing to do with you!”
Xiaozhou looked at his flung away hand, a little stunned.
He didn't laugh anymore.
Frowning, he stared at me, his expression growing more and more irritated.
Xu Xuanyan poked his head out from behind him.
Grinning, revealing sharp little tiger teeth, “What's the matter, reacting so much?”
His customary clipped voice made his tone lively and playful.
It was easy for people to feel close to him.
But the words he said were the opposite of what he showed.
“Can it be that your sister really has a wild man outside?”
“Wow, isn't having a few of us enough?”
His smile deepened as he stared at me and said with a different meaning, “How prodigal.”
Xu Xuanyin's favorite thing was to refer to the three of them as my harem.
As if I was so despicable, so high in status, so special.
But in our little group of four.
I was the one who went to great lengths to try and fit in with them.
There was a time when I would have fooled myself.
Even though they were always teasing me, putting me down, and often finding all sorts of devious ideas on me for fun.
But maybe they boys, that's just the way it is.
Apart from that, they would often come to play with me, and they would help me out when I was bullied by others.
They grew up together.
I'm still different to them.
It wasn't until the last time that happened.
I finally realized.
From the beginning, I was just a toy that they could play with at will.
A clown for their amusement when they were bored.
I met Xu Xuyan's gaze.
The corners of his mouth were still upturned, expecting to see my reaction after being stung by his already excessive words.
But I expressionlessly stared at him for a moment.
Turned around and walked away.
Not more than a few steps away, another slightly cold voice suddenly called out to me.
“When are you coming back to class?”
I paused and didn't turn around.
But for this normal inquiry, it was good to at least give a little response, “In a couple days.”
Immediately after that, I heard Xu Xuyan give a very unhappy 'tsk'.
He purposely muttered loudly so that I could hear it as well.
“I'm not ashamed to have talked about it and only give him a good face.”
“But--”
“You've been broken up for so long, sis, and you're still treating him differently?”
It's ridiculous.
Of the three, it's clear that Zhuang Banquet is the most resistant and disgusted by the marriage with me.
His words were also the most outrageous, saying that I was stupid and foolish, and that he wouldn't take someone like me as his wife.
However, I have dated him.
It was even Zhuang Yan who first confessed his love for me.
3
Unlike the Xiao, Xu, and Zhuang families who have accumulated capital over generations.
Our Xie family only got rich later.
To be precise, it was my father who unintentionally caught the east wind of the times in his early years.
From then on, he soared into the sky and squeezed into the circle of these three powerful families.
But that's just the surface.
Many people mock my family behind their backs.
Said we are just a momentary triumph of profiteering, do not deserve to be in the same circle with them.
Sooner or later, we had to go back to where we came from.
I was too young to be angry and rolled up my sleeves to settle the score with them.
It was my father who stopped me and said to me in a serious manner.
If our family wants to really stand firm, we must have a good relationship with this group of people.
So I put up with it.
I began to pretend to be big-headed and heartless, trying to blend in with the young masters and young ladies in that group.
Later, after discovering the special status of Xiao Zhou and the others, I kept following them like an ass-kisser ťŭ₅.
From elementary school to middle school.
From being rejected and teased to gradually being accepted by them.
All the way to college.
Even though I was initially taught by my father that my intentions were not pure.
But then for so many years, I truly regarded them as my best friends.
Until my dad's investment failed, the stock market fell off a cliff.
They steeply began to coldly alienate me.
I in a long time in the helplessness, slowly understand.
It turns out that since the beginning, the status between us, are not equal.
This time I didn't try to please them.
Instead, I went to and from school as usual, adapting to life without them.
Then, I was kidnapped.
I was still confused when I was surrounded by a group of acquaintances for ransom.
I recognized a few of my usual friends among them.
So it was unbelievable that they would choose me to do it.
I even thought they were joking with me.
I even laughed and said that if they were short of money, I could lend it to them.
But they asked for a price I couldn't even afford.
I realized that they were serious.
They searched me for everything of value.
They kept me for two days without a drop of water.
On hearing them anxiously discussing that they were afraid to blackmail my parents directly and were planning to find someone to sell me.
I felt a comical wave of absurdity and devastation well up in me.
It was like seeing a bunch of kids with kitchen knives saying they were going to kill someone.
It was both funny because of their milquetoast age.
At the same time, because of their serious expressions and the sharp knives in their hands, a sudden sense of crisis arose.
And that touch of silliness and amusement.
Also when they stripped me naked and took nude photos for sale.
It turned into bone chilling cold and panic.
I tried to curl up my body, cursing them like crazy, putting harsh words to threaten them.
But anyone can see my bluff and fear.
There was a man inside, named Zhou Yu Cheng, and I used to be friends.
He squatted down and sighed.
While smiling and reaching out to touch me, he said, “Yan Yan, you forgive me.”
“In fact, I like you very much, I don't want to do this ......”
His words didn't finish and turned into a scream.
I bit down on his finger and my whole body exploded with unprecedented strength.
Almost hard enough to bite his finger off.
The group was thrown into chaos and rushed to stop me.
Just then-
The warehouse door opened.
A burst of strong light shot in from the ground, gradually spreading out the entire dimly lit dilapidated warehouse.
A long figure in the doorway turned his back to the light.
It just descended inside my pupils.
It was Zhuang Yan.
4
After being rescued that day.
I didn't dare to go out for a long time.
The betrayal of a friend without warning, the sudden kidnapping for ransom.
As well as being stripped naked and photographed without dignity.
All in my heart a stroke by stroke painfully carved the ink color shadow.
My taut spirit faltered.
And during that time, it was always cold and mean Zhuang Yan who accompanied me.
I've never seen him so gentle and patient.
Or to me.
He seemed to be able to sense my broken and depressed emotions.
Originally he did not talk much, he began to find all kinds of topics to chat with me every day.
I lived in his private apartment.
He helped me take a good vacation from school, and he helped me hide my parents' side.
Zhou Yu Cheng's group of people he also used his own contacts to teach private lessons.
Even Xiao Zhou and Xu Xuyan, who are on the best of terms with him, he found ways to stop Zhou.
He didn't let this matter leak any bit of wind.
He also didn't let anyone bother me to touch my scars.
Like a cold rain suddenly met with a spring breeze and evaporated into a soft vapor.
With a silent gesture, I was firmly protected under his wings.
He is mature, steady and reliable.
Let me gradually open the tightly closed clam shell, can not control his heart dependence.
In the end, I really can't help it.
With anticipation and apprehension asked him, “Why ...... is so good to me?”
I still remember at that time.
Zhuang Banquet wearing casual and comfortable home clothes, and I sat side by side on the carpet.
He half rolled up his sleeves, revealing his pale but slender and powerful arms, and his fountain pen rotated flexibly in his wide knuckles.
His eyeglasses were also removed, and a few strands of black hair fell in front of his forehead, making him quite a bit lethargic.
When he raised his eyes to look at me, it was unspeakably tender and doting.
He used a rhetorical question instead of an answer.
With a slight smile, he asked me, “Do you want to go out with me?”
It was as if an arrow feather hit the bullseye.
I dizzily fell into his rare and extremely seductive tenderness.
I had no reason to shake my head and refuse.
Under his care, I slowly shook off the shadow and became cheerful again.
Looking back now, I still feel in a trance.
Zhuang Banquet seems to have an indifferent character, but his bones are extremely strong.
At the time when I was passionately in love with him.
Xiaozhou was forced to restrain himself from hooking up with me.
Xu Xuyan also forced to restrain himself from talking to me.
Even if there is a little bit of me feel uncomfortable.
He would take it very seriously.
I was so happy that I almost fell in love with him.
Even the future and his marriage to choose what kind of wedding dress are giggling and simulated in the mind countless times.
But he was pretending.
He was pretending.
Everything he gave me - it was all a lie.
I'll never forget that day.
I cooked for the first time, with bruised țṻ⁺marked hands and countless scrapped ingredients.
Made a sumptuous meal of eighteen courses.
Just because Zhuang Banquet a sentence, want to eat my hand-made meal at the birthday party.
But the doorbell rang.
I opened the door, and what I waited for was not praise and admiration.
Instead, it was laughter.
Inexplicable laughter.
A group of people mocked unmercifully.
Xu Xuanyin held his stomach and laughed so hard that he couldn't straighten his back.
Xiao Zhou whistled with a bad smile while using his cell phone to record my wretched and bewildered appearance in an apron with a spatula in my hand.
And Zhuang Yan.
He lazily leaned against the doorway, smiling lightly as he watched everything inside.
It was as if a player with a sure win was rippling through the scene of his victorious settlement.
“I didn't realize that our proud and brash Miss Xie also has such a virtuous side ah, hahaha ......”
“Luckily our betting contract is only for a month, otherwise if we keep on acting like this, Zhuang Banquet, her child would be willing to give birth to you! Hahahaha.”
“Ha, interesting, next time it's my turn to play, right?”
Xiao Zhou paused when he said those words.
He looked back at me.
Then, shrugging his shoulders, he turned around again without much care.
Hooking his lips in a smile, he said, ''She heard it, ah, so next time, it's going to be a newer trick.''
5
I stood there for a long, long time.
A layer of cold ice took root from the soles of my feet and gradually crawled all over my body.
I had a little trouble even swallowing, as if I were swallowing a knife.
Then came the trembling.
Uncontrollable subtle trembling.
I rolled my eyes and wordlessly looked towards Zhuang Yan, who stood farthest away from me.
Lips trembled and opened.
Wanting to ask him, is this true?
When I first asked you why you were so kind to me.
You avoided answering.
It turned out to be waiting for me here.
However, this more than a month of little by little together.
Don't you have a little bit of me, even just a little bit of soft guilt?
Zhuang Yan and I stared at each other for three seconds, and his smile faded.
Then, he calmly averted his gaze.
I slowly closed my mouth.
No need to ask again, no need to make a fool of myself.
I understood his answer.
I thought I would cry.
Thought I'd bawl my eyes out and drown them all in tears.
And then watch them panic and fumble.
But I couldn't cry.
My throat was choked and sore, my heart pumping and chills all over my body.
But my eyes were dry and gray and I couldn't squeeze out a single tear.
Nor could I utter a word.
I just stood quietly in the middle of them.
Surrounded by the sharp knife-like sneers.
When they had laughed enough, they slowly stopped.
They began to wonder about my strange reaction of being as impassive as dead silence.
Only then did I gently exhale a mouthful of cloudy air.
In a voice that was hoarse to the point of being a little hard to hear.
Said to them, “...... Let's cut ties.”
After that day, I took a break from school.
Immediately after that, my dad's reputation and business took a sharp turn for the worse.
But he was not willing to do so and always thought he could make a comeback.
So things got worse and worse for our family Ṭũ₋.
If it wasn't for the money my mom was holding on to and forbidding him to move, I'm afraid I wouldn't have been able to go to school.
I'm afraid I wouldn't have been able to afford to even go to school.
We moved out of the rich neighborhood.
I sold all my luxuries, including locomotives, pianos and watches.
My anxiety was only eased by looking at the increased amount in my account.
In addition to that.
I also asked my boyfriend, Ling Xiao, to help me persuade my dad.
He had good grades and had started his own successful business back in high school.
Handling business matters was always better than me, a poor student.
I don't have any psychological burden to use him.
On the first day of resuming school.
Ling Xiao's driver specially came around to my new home in the suburbs to pick me up.
I sold my car, but the quality of life didn't go down at all.
When I arrived at the school entrance, Ling Xiao was gentlemanly helping me open the car door and wanted to lead me out of the car.
A sudden roar sped by in the distance.
After an ear-splitting sound of tires scraping the ground.
Xiao Zhou stopped his cool black motorcycle with a drift and a tail, taking off his helmet.
With his long legs, his face stank as he walked towards us.
He stared at the hand that Ling Xiao was holding mine.
Suddenly, smashed the helmet over.
Ling Xiao and I were forced to separate to both sides.
Before we had time to get angry.
Xiao Zhou instead sneered and asked me, “Is this your so-called new boyfriend? What a lousy eye.”
“When did you hook up with him behind our backs?”
6
His tone was so righteous.
It's like I'm the one who's stealing behind his back.
But who does he think he is to me?
I was originally still a bit angry and subconsciously wanted to sneer back.
But upon catching this hint of his somewhat out of the ordinary dissimilarity.
I pondered for a moment.
When I raised my head again.
I ignored Xiao Zhou and only looked at Ling Xiao and took the initiative to hold his hand.
In an intimate tone, I said, “Let's go, ignore him, we'll be late for class in a while.”
The two people who were originally facing each other with cold eyes, their gazes suddenly fell on me.
Ling Xiao was quite a bit flattered and immediately smiled.
As soon as I treated him a little better, he would be brilliant as hell.
He couldn't help but come over in a sticky manner and wrapped his arms around my shoulders.
Rubbing my hair, he said, “Okay, I'll listen to you on all counts.”
Xiao Zhou's face on the side was simply hard to see.
He saw that we were going to leave.
He fiercely reached out to grab me.
However, Ling Xiao was prepared to side-step him and heavily knocked his hand back.
Ling Xiao protected me behind him.
Looking at him expressionlessly, he said, “What do you want to do to my wife?”
“Your wife?!”
The sound, so sharp that it was almost distorted, did not come from Xiao Zhou.
I twisted my head.
Saw Xu Xuyan and Zhuang Yan who had appeared on the other side at some point.
I instantly realized that ƭũⁿ...... today's class, I'm afraid I won't be able to make it.
Xu Xuanyan took a step closer.
Eyes sharply swept over Ling Xiao and me.
He changed from his usual pretentious sweet brother style.
Almost a bit sarcastic, he said, “How long have you been dating her before you call her your wife? Do you want to be shameless?”
“Sister, listen to me, you can't have this kind of undignified man!”
“If you really want to find a boyfriend ...... I can reluctantly commit myself to be your little boyfriend.”
Ling Xiao was about to be pissed off at him.
He angrily rebuked, “Digging up a wall foot and also digging up in front of me, just who is shameless?!”
The two of them argued without any manners.
It wasn't very hurtful, and it was quite humiliating to lose face.
I even saw some of the college students on the sidelines pretending as if nothing had happened, but in reality, they were full of loopholes and secretly raised their cell phones.
I didn't want to see my name appear on the campus confession wall later on in this elementary school chicken pecking.
So I tugged on Ling Xiao's coat, ready to tell him to go.
Just then.
Zhuang Yan, who had remained silent, suddenly spoke.
His words were plain.
But like a knife, they stabbed straight into my heart.
“Xie Yan, as long as you're good to you, you'll do anyone, right?”
I was not surprised that Zhuang Banquet knew about my story with Ling Xiao.
In reality, if someone wanted to find out, they could easily find out the whole story.
Because Ling Xiao chasing me wasn't low-key.
It could even be described as sensational, fervent and publicized.
He's a transfer student who only came to our class this semester.
Although his looks and figure weren't bad, at first, I didn't pay much attention to him.
I have a good relationship with my classmates, and I got acquainted with him after a few conversations.
Occasionally, we will meet together to have a dinner date and discuss the topic.
Until the news broke that I broke up with Zhuang Banquet.
He found me in the hospital on the third day of my suspension.
The same as Zhuang Banquet.
He gave me, who was in a very poor state of mind at the time, the utmost care.
He tried all sorts of tricks to make me happy.
And he's not like Zhuang Yang.
He didn't hide his emotions.
Over and over again, he sincerely told me that he liked me and fell in love with me at first sight.
He was close to dissecting out his heart and placing it in front of me to show me.
I watched him quietly for a long time.
Finally after receiving a reply from the private detective I commissioned.
I promised him that I would become his girlfriend.
The sun was so bright that it was a bit harsh and repulsive.
I came back to my senses in a trance.
Looking towards Zhuang Yan who was still waiting for my reply.
Grinning, I smiled at him and said, “Yeah, what's up?”
“I'll like whoever is useful to me, except for my ex, of course.”
7
Actually, I hadn't thought of that.
The fact that I was dating Ling Xiao would affect these three people so much.
It seems that in the beginning, when I said I had a boyfriend.
None of them really believed it.
Ling Xiao and I caught the second class.
Since there weren't many good seats left, we had to sit in the front row.
As a result, as soon as we were seated, Xu Xuyan quickly sat down on the other side of my empty seat.
Immediately afterward, the two chairs behind us also came squeaking.
Ling Xiao gritted his teeth a bit, but there was nothing he could do.
Just like this, I finished an entire class in the weird atmosphere of dark currents surging around me.
During this time, except for Xu Xuyan who couldn't hold back.
Putting on a pitiful appearance, he asked me, “Sister, are you serious with him?”
After not receiving any response from me, he lowered his head in loss and bewilderment.
The other two were quite composed.
And so.
After school, Ling Xiao came over to talk to me and I nodded my head.
Didn't actually listen to what he was actually saying.
Nothing more than ordering my favorite takeout and buying me flowers or a small dessert.
Doesn't matter.
I leaned in close and rewarded him by planting a kiss on the side of his face.
Wow...
An assortment of pens and books slammed to the ground behind me.
The chair makes a sharp noise.
But we in the center of the storm seemed oblivious.
I was indifferent.
Ling Xiao on the other hand, his face instantly exploded red the moment I kissed him.
His head was bubbling with hot air and his eyes were a bit lax.
Couldn't even notice the movement around him.
But he stared at my lips with downcast eyes and swallowed.
As if feeling unsatisfied.
Subconsciously wanted to come over and continue kissing me.
-Instead, he kissed the back of a hand that clearly belonged to a man.
Ling Xiao's face suddenly changed, obscurely backed away.
Then raised his head and stared.
The line of sight locked with Xiao Zhou's in mid-air.
It seemed to resound with the crackle of electricity.
The next second the two stood up at the same time.
The eyes were about to fight.
I suddenly opened my mouth and called out to him, “Xiao Zhou.”
Not Ling Xiao, but Xiao Zhou.
The two men's movements stopped hard, Xiao Zhou looked sideways towards me.
In his eyes, there was a vague sense of anticipation.
What was he expecting?
What did he think, I would say?
I smiled down and looked at him.
Slowly, I said, “Even if you get rid of him, I won't choose you as my boyfriend.”
Xiao Zhou's expression first stuttered.
Then, as if he had been stabbed by a needle, his entire body reacted horribly.
He let out a ha, as if he had heard something hilarious.
The entire person was speechless to the point of wanting to sneer again.
In the end, he got angry and said, “Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are?
“You still think I'm your boyfriend? Don't be so self-abs